Softness & Ferocity: 2024 Year of the Dragon
welly well i'm feeling lots of excitement about this new year of the dragon.
the last dragon year in 2012 was a very transformational year - i quit my job, became my own boss, lost myself in a fateful relationship, and found my kink: shadow excavation :)
important lessons were learned during this time and continues to nourish me
here are the pearls that were patiently being created in the dark:
don't ignore how you really feel
if you don't feel seen, it's not because you're unworthy of it
there's nothing in you that's undeserving of compassion
your rage is sacred, and 100% valid
there was an intense do or die energy. like a strong you better get on board with change
or feel fucking horrible every day trying to quietly endure the prison labor camp working so hard to keep pretending im this chill unbothered equanimous girlfriend person who has it all together
2012 was a tough tower year as i really hung on with the latter, and it hurt. a lot. but i just didn't know how to choose myself, and stop letting everyone else’s needs take priority with my highly controlled curated reactions to always be nice
but not honest.
i was very much in the dark about how to understand what my turbulent disturbed inner state was trying to communicate to me.
i felt embarrassed and ashamed. the feelings felt too big to handle. so i tried my best to stuff them down. until i couldn't anymore.
it took lots of emotional validation, being witnessed, spaciousness, and settling into my body for me to let myself cross the threshold
...and let the deeply closeted angry bitch talk shit
it was like opening up a window to the place that never before had seen the light
to get reeeeeeal honest about the rage, hurt, and sadness. like purge all the niceness and considerateness that were actually just scared lies trying to cover up the real stuff.
and walk away from the relationship that for a while had hypnotized me into believing i HAD to stay.
which meant facing my shadow attraction for emotionally neglectful people
and face what i was neglecting in myself in order to try and get attention from them
🔥 honesty with my true raw emotions was my dragon initiation🔥🐉
i give thanks to my dragon guardians who energetically held my hair back over the metaphorical toilet seat to let me eject my false self and beliefs about my unworthiness outta me
they are the ferocious guardians of the vulnerable and sacred scared parts of you
and taste the sweet nectar of freedom in unconditional self acceptance of my unacceptable parts, which turns out, are actually really cool, endearing, and lovable
the dragon's color this year is gold, which in alchemy is highest potential of transformation.
transforming negative emotion into insight is where it’s at
let the dragon teach emotional alchemy, through respecting each and every emotions, especially the forbidden ones, as messengers.
it's a dual process of softness and ferocity
to ride the dragon into the places that scare you
happy lunar dragon new year,
❤️
kwonyin
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